what’s in store

we got our internet back! yipee. to be honest, it was a short lived break, as we were hooked back up (cheaply, yay!) by tuesday…it’s now saturday and i have yet to feel like i have anything interesting to say upon being reconnected.

i’ve had some more consistent, yet still fleeting thoughts about my connectivity to the internet and i continually wonder about scaling back. this week was a good one as each day made me feel like i was on the right path towards my hopes of more authentic community. we have since joined a home group in the last couple weeks, and although everyone was a stranger to wil and i upon the first meeting, i know it won’t be like that for long. i am eager to get to know the women (and men) better, especially as we delve into a new series at church about ‘real marriage’…not the fluffy christianese marriages but honest, sincere and friendship filled marriages.

even after a regular home group meeting on tuesday, the girls hanging out wednesday night, and the guys meeting for happy hour last night, i am already thinking of more ways to spend time with these people. i also loved getting to catch up with another friend over candy and a chick flick on thursday while wil closed at work. although i am quite an introvert, there are seasons where i crave social interaction and feel lonely. also just in light of our circumstances…being here for 2 years already, starting to stick with a church, having a baby, etc. i am seeking to grow, yet tighten a circle of people around ourselves that we call good friends. people that speak wisdom and truth into our lives, people we can serve with, and honestly, just people to hang out, share meals, and live life with.

with this in mind, i’ve seen myself habitually clicking the twitter button on my phone and by the time the feed loads, losing interest. or realizing it’s been a week before thinking about another post on here, and being ok with it. i don’t necessarily feel like i spend too much time online, but more so feel like there is this subconscious obligation to spend time online (for etsy, followers, etc) when really i am seeking the face to face. and i don’t want to feel like i have to give in to this obligation that is clearly not founded upon anything except being made up in my head.

where am i going with this? who knows. but i know god is continually working in my heart, even though i don’t know what he’s doing. i am excited to see what he’s laying out for me and wil and our new family, but i do know that he won’t be disappointed in me if i don’t tweet or blog about it.